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Princessa
Yours Truly  Rara Alqadri |
Man Of Life
Boyfriend  Eric Heng Kun Fa My Heart & Soul
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Kickass ♥Fidah ♥Sis iiCa ♥Fana ♥Wani ♥iLa ♥zAiNuRiAh ♥KhAdIjAh ♥Ashraf<3<3 ♥Fuad ♥Eka
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
its only 920am and i'm feeling so miserable already. i was halfway doing my work, when at ard 845 i feel so sleepy tat i decided to catch some shuteye in the toilet. haha. now, i feel abit better. regarding my previous entry, yes, he did call me at 1208pm during my lunchtime and we chatted till like 1315 like tat. of course, i was elated. i even read him the whole passage of my previous entry to which he said he was speechless. then the day goes by and i missed his calls twice bcoz i was doing some fucking scanning. but i called him back and we chatted and i was all smiling again. then he called me again n again i missed it. i called back, his hp was off, meaning his batt went flat.so, of coz my face was like shit all the way hm. but ydae, i went out for awhile, alone, to get some fresh air. reach hm, did some karaoke-ing with the dad and again i missed his calls. twice. coz i was charging the damn hp. so i called back. but he did not answer. then i sent him 1 text msg. then continue calling him but still no answer. so i gave up and went to find something to wear to work tomorrow. then i saw my hp suddenly light up and i quickly rush to answer his call. i pick up and apologize for not picking up his calls. and i ask why he did not pick up my calls and he retorted back by saying, since u dun pick up mine, then why shd i pick up yours? whateva u did to me, i'll do the same to u. for example, if u show me love, then i show u mine. tat got me speechless. but i did not cry. i still talk, laugh n even sing with him. then we hanged up for awhile and we went to do our own stuffs. i was lying in bed when he called me to call him bk using my hm phone. to which i said i was lazy to get outta bed coz theres no phone in my room so i just used my hp. so, i called him bk and we chatted for awhile. remember my previous entry, when i said i chatted wif him the nite before from 2332 to 0038hrs?ok, so apparently, he said after the talk wif me, one of his other girly companions, called him and they chatted till like 4am. haha. then he continued talking abt the conversation completely oblivious to my feelings. to which i suddenly said i wanted to sleep. after which he realised he had jus said sumting wrong. ya, he did apologize but i cant take it anymore so we hanged up and i went to sleep. when i wake up this morning at 6am, i sent him 3 text msgs. i thought he was still sleeping. then reach office, i missed call him and he called me back. and we argue. and he hanged up on me. Twice. and i stupidly apologize even tho its not my mistake. i do not noe what my feeling are rite now. whether its my fault or not, at the very end i still have to bear the brunt of it. i am still at the losing end. and he still have his girly companions and here i am licking my own wounds.. i noe i hv to be strong. but i really cant. i realli need a hug and a shoulder to cry on.. c'mon rara, move on n dont look back ever again. he doesnt need u at all. i switch off my hp for fear, i wud sent him unnecessarily text msgs. but all tat i want is for him to call, or at the very least, send me an sms.. plz. let me past thru today..
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