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Just got home from seeing the other half.. Met him at 6.15 pm and i'm already at hm now which is 10.15pm. Only managed to spend 4 short hours with him. And i hv to wait till Monday to see him. Tat is if he is not tired..

I met him at AMK hub/central, had dinner at LJS and just walk around aimlessly. and all the while he was being so so nice to me and all i did was be extremely harsh back to him.

He kept saying "i love yous" but i totally ignored him. When we were standing at the escalator or sumting, he wud wait for me to hug him but i would just look away. But he still doesnt mind all that, and keep stroking, hugging and kissing me..

Went back to Sembawang, and we chilled at a plc near my void deck. Sit down and take silly pictures but he never stopped showering me with love and i never stopped being bitchy. I feel a bit better but when it seems like he cant wait to go home, it dampens my spirit and makes me more temperamental.

Argued again regarding the fishing and abt me having little friends again. He said something that hurt and make my tears well up. But i managed not to cry. He apologises but i do not care.

He sent me home. Usually, i wud salam and kiss and hug him, then he will go off. But just now, all i did was to salam him and i told him i dun wan to hug or kiss. He looked hurt and we both just walk off.

Go into my room trying hard not to cry. He text me something and i told him not to call me any affectionate name.

He 's in the bus now on the way home and here i am pouring out feelings.

And to you, my other half, it hurts me to treat you like this and it hurts me more seeing you get hurt because of my behaviour. But as i said, i'm doing all this because i do not want to miss you or think about you.

This is the reason why, i do not want to fall deeply, deeply in love. At the end of the day, i'm the one who gets hurt real bad..

Lao Gong, i love you..

I really do..