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Wednesday, November 18, 2009
 Mum woke me up at 6.45 am today and i was practically rushing off to work. Punched the time card at exactly 8.15 am. And i leisurely stroll into the office :) Quite busy today. With alot of POs and last minute shipments. But by lunchtime, i was left with not much things to do. And the best thing is, the Boss is on halfday leave today. So there's no "government" and i can just act busy :) Feeling very lethargic and tired today. Maybe its the PMS. and its making me so so parched. and on top of it, it makes me very hot tempered. Argued again with the other half again for the countless time yesterday night. But I managed to sleep it off only because i was sleepy and tired. Sometimes, i just feel that the other half do not understand me and he expects me to understand him. It v v unfair. I know that he has his own hobby and friends. And i do admit that i am jealous that he has truckloads of friends and activities while i'm just stuck between home and work and him. Its not that i'm trying to control him or something, but i just hate the fact that he's going to leave me for some stupid fishing somewhere. Ya i understand that it is his hobby but why cant he try to be fair to me? I know he is trying very hard to be fair to me but sometimes i cant help feeling that he is just trying to please me so that he can go fish without any worries. And to be fair to the other half, i did push myself to adapt to his lifestyle. I forced myself to go with the flow with him. But sometimes, it just seem too much. Sometimes i just cant take it. And if i cant take it, all i want to do is get mad and be angry. And we will both end up arguing. I hate being left alone. I hate to be stuck at home on the weekends. I hate to think that he will be having fun outside while i'll be stuck at home. But then again, no point saying, because i'm the one to be blamed for not being understanding. No matter how hard i try to push the feeling away, at the end of the day, i'm still the one who gets hurt real bad.  PS: Between fishing and jamming, i prefer jamming. :) :)
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